So today I sent Tyler and e-mail basically stating that I was sorry for the way that things ended, and that I would still like to be friends, I then proceeded to put him back into my phone, and friend request him on facebook... (I'm really an 8th grade girl if you couldn't tell). I feel like I did the right thing, but I'm nervous that he won't read it, or worse think that I'm this desperate loser that just wants him back; but I have to admit that I would go back to when it was good at the drop of a hat. I feel, so pathetic, like, I just couldn't stay away. Couldn't get over this silly boy who, some how managed to grasp me in some way that is hard to describe.
I have that feeling you know, that you get right before you start crying (or I think it what that feeling is, I haven't cried since the day I came out, and that was in 2006) where there is this pressure on your chest, like someone just knocked the wind out of you; and your just barely beginning to regain the ability to breathe. What is wrong with me? Why can't I just get over him and move on? It sucks cause I think of, and miss him every day...
In other news...
I bought a television today, a Vizio 22' HDTV and it is a beauty! But today when I got home around 3am I thought to myself that TV would be nice to watch, but I only have rabbit ears, and thus there would only be infomercials on; and I thought of the good old days before my time, when television stations would play the National Anthem, and then go off the air... I feel like I have not heard that song in too long, and that it is being forgotten by the world, and this makes me sad. A song that to me, represents the creation of this country, and that some people, feel, that it is too violent. These people I would also assume eat tofu, and hate god; But not Allah, because that would be racially insensitive. But that my dear friends is the topic of another day...
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